Present Imperfect/Future Unclear

I flew back to France from London today - on time and no problems, which was just as well because I had guests arriving this afternoon and their suite to clean and dress between my arrival and theirs.

I have spent the last week in London with Debrah and she was here before that so we have had the best part of a fortnight in each others company. We enjoyed a great long weekend here in France with trips out to Bouzigues for oysters and Lagrasse to meet new friends. We had an equally good time in London with trips to the market and lunches with Debrah's mum and just the two of us at Orrery on Marylebone High Street.

Actually, it was just perfect to be spending the time together, which is why yesterday and this morning were so difficult - we knew that we will be apart again now until the end of the month and the thought of it made us both a bit unhappy and depressed and a bit bolshy about the continuing time spent in different countries.

Over the last month we have talked and talked about how to solve this conundrum. Should I stop or re-shape the business here in France and go back to London and get a job or should we try to start a bigger business in France that will enable us both to live here full time? - and every single option in-between - sell? - rent? - buy? - borrow? - sit tight? - maximise income? - wait for the house market/job market/exchange rate/economy to improve? Inevitably there is no perfect answer to our imperfect situation.

So here we are again - in different countries relying on skype and email and phone to stay close to each other - trying not to get frustrated or angry or sad or lonely. I have a very very busy month with guests every day between now and 4th July when we get to escape for a week and Debrah has suddenly got new business opportunities flying into the agency (which is good of course). We will both be busy but there is no doubt that we would rather be busy together.